So the idea of balance continues to come up. Today one of my
friends commented that she felt like she’s wasted several years of her life
because she’s not in a relationship. I pointed out that in those past several years
she’s completely changed careers. She quit her job in advertising to get
trained as a yoga instructor. She has built up her credentials and is not only
teaching kids yoga but is goes around the country training other instructors
how to teach specialized yoga classes. She also suffered a major and
complicated illness which took a long time to properly diagnose and which she eventually
had to have surgery for. Her life hasn’t been idle.
But, I know what she means.
We only have so much time in our lives. I, for one, tend to
get excessive in some areas of my life and leave other areas neglected
altogether until the scream for attention. I’ll lose myself in work completely
until I am having dreams of about my coworkers turning into vampires. I’ll sign
up for multiple online dating sites and have to keep a spreadsheet to get names
and details right. Or I’ll huddle down in my Bat Cave until friends start
calling me Snuffleupagas. It’s a problem.
Right now I’m filling my calendar with too much. I’m going
to fitness classes, taking Tamil
lessons and going out with friends. All of
these are great. Except, I have no “free” time. For example, today a guy I met a couple of
weeks ago discussed getting together, last week. But I literally didn’t have a
single free night until maybe the second week in October, if something falls
through. You could get some doctor’s appointments easier than a date with me.
Here’s the problem. I am not leaving room for new
opportunities to enter my life. It takes more energy for me to meet new people
than hanging out with those I care for. I haven’t been giving to myself and spending
enough time restoring my energy to do this. Nor have I truly been connecting
with people when I spend time with them because I have little to give. And then I wonder why I’ve been feeling so
lonely.
So, maybe the whole feng shui/if-you-build-it-they-will-come
approach is needed. Leaving gaps in my schedule for new opportunities. Or some
much needed quality Me Time.
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